it is dark
and quiet
the loudest sound in the room is the beating of my heart
i can feel blood rushing through my veins
the sounds of my life are deafening
the silence is palpable
i should have felt peaceful
but i wished for someone to talk with
or love
once again, i tell myself that no one will hurt me tonight
i don’t have to be afraid anymore
today i would tell my younger self to get a dog
and a library card
(c) 2020 BGeiger
if all of life were this lovely
perhaps
there would be no fear
or anxiety
or troubles between people
if all of life were as innocent
as a flower,
and every sound
as peaceful as petal dust,
if every breeze brought only lovely summer scents
and fireflies,
then, just perhaps,
people
could be kind and lovely
to one another as well
(c) 2020 BGeiger
broken hearts and shattered dreams
are the stuff of expectations
they are the trouble after all
if only this
if only that
this very moment is all we have
all we can truly call our own,
the rest is only shiny dreams
and expectations
if you must love
don’t give it to the one
who hurts your heart and walks away.
save it for the one
who will love you well
and truly
but for today,
be with yourself,
not by yourself alone.
love the day as it unfolds
and love yourself
at least a little, every day.
(c) 2020 BGeiger
dreaming out loud 